The other day someone asked on Instagram if I have balance in my life in reference to all of my training. I use my Instagram account as a running account, and it’s full of training pictures, but it still made me feel a little defensive. I read the post right before I went to bed, so I went through various stages of answering this question in my head throughout the night (made possible when your baby wakes you up in the night and starts the thought process over again).
I woke up clear headed with my answer. No, I don’t have balance. That’s not my goal. If we’re honest, not many people have balance, whether they are training for crazy goals, or just trying to survive motherhood in a world that has traffic and work and grocery shopping and housework and relationships to attend to.
I don’t think there have been many stages in my life where I lived a balanced life. I’ve always lived in extremes. I finished first in my class in high school, skipping my senior year and going to college early. I didn’t drink before I turned 21. I was not good at math growing up, so I majored in engineering and ended up getting my masters degree in it. I finished the masters degree in 1.5 years, while my peers took 3+ years to finish. I married the first person who I ever went on more than three dates with. I never missed a workout until I hired a coach and she made me so tired that I finally took rest days seriously.
Like most runners, I’m a bit A type, and I also really love to train and get stronger and faster. So this past year of running postpartum has been a lot of work, but it has also been extremely rewarding. I compared my Boston Marathon experience to Disney for adults. In that case, training for my first 100 mile race and completing it was heaven. And the feeling of satisfaction in training a little harder to get my sub-3 marathon was the icing on the cake. While I can do it, I’m going to keep going. I have a supportive husband and a baby who fits right in to the schedule. It’s hard work, and I have to make sacrifices, but that’s where I am in life right now. Unbalanced. 🙂
Is balance one of your goals?